As kid also I was so bored, by being bored… that’s how I ended up by touching this amazing teaching!
The boredom I was experiencing was THE QUESTION of which, driven me to THE ANSWER! One of the turning point in my life was when I realized, that I was bored with being so bored!
I wanted an answer to my boredom… but I wasn’t a boring kid though… I was adventurous as a kid… Sometimes I was too adventures for a girl. You know, a tomboy type... I observe things so deeply as much as possible from the childhood… with all that what I found was that I am so bored with repetition.
I happen to observe my own life as a child. And then observed the others' lifestyles. Then I have noticed that most of us are doing the same thing again & again. The repetition.
We eat, we sleep, we refresh, in between we do the things for education and other things for living. I thought about each subject one by one… as an example if I take eating process for an example; we eat in the morning (breakfast), then the lunch, dinner and in between snacks. I was wondering why we just can’t full ourselves only once and use it. But no, we are getting hungry, and we need to overcome that pain of hunger. So, it’s almost the same in every day. Likewise, I was thinking about getting hungry and looking for food and the maintenance we must do to keep us alive each and every day.
So, I thought people are bored with this as much as I do and that’s why they are looking for some excitement in the food.
We care about the look of the food… We care about the tastes… We care about the recipes… We care about different style cuisines. Even different styles of cooking… no matter what we do, at the end of the day the result is the same. We try to get rid of the boredom of repetitive eating process, but still, we are bored!
So, I thought, what is this… it’s so useless… it’s so useless to make such an effort on our food. It’s meaningless to look for a meaning through the food. We eat just to get rid of the hungriness. And that’s enough. No need to have even the 3 meals if I am not hungry.
In a way, I just give up on looking for excitement through the food. Then I felt liberated in a way. Like breaking a frame which we build through food and other stuffs. And as a child I began to enjoy the whole meaningless process of finding excitement through food by others. Like watching a movie!
Then I realized that this is not only for the food… it’s for the cloths… education… jobs… marriage… every single thing which we practice as LIFE is nothing but just a meaningless repetition cycle which is so boring.
I felt that all of us are looking for some excitement in life, just because we are so bored with all these things. But seems like not everyone likely to be accepted the fact of that they are being bored. So, I used to hide my boredom and pretend that I like to do these things which others are excited to do! I surely did many very exciting things in my life within these 34 years of my life, which compared to other girls in my age and my family background and other circumstances.
But nothing was so exciting for me as others claims that they have to be exciting… As I knew the reason somewhere in my heart, well I guess, I am SAVED finally! I know that I am not bored with what I am doing now with this life, and I am actually experiencing the true excitement by revealing the unseen unheard hidden truth of my own self & this so-called "I" and "The world”!
So, as you see, this was one of my key question which driven me to THE ANSWER… which driven me to realize the essence of pure deep Buddhist teachings!
But now that, when I am not bored at all, other people finding me as a boring person! Ha... ha… That's so funny in a way!
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